e entire supposedly fun week juz passed liddat.omg.im gonna suffer more soon.more tests.more problems.more unhappiness.i want e time to juz stop here.i wanna stay at home.i dunt wanna meet e rest.im not prepared for e worst.im utterly upset abt sum things.i dunno who i can confide in.now.who is e person i can truly rely on????.uurrgghh
e muscial was great.did ushering on e first night.cool.was e so-called lift attendant.a little stuffy though.but it was okay.den for e refreshment.ate lots can.e choc cakes frm elsie's kitchen were fantastic.joked n fooled ard.den went wanted to go to e clock tower.but decieded not to.hahs.went hm.gina's father fetched.was dead beat.bathed n went to my dreamland.woke uo so early juz to go to e ip seminar.was okay.we were drencehd when we reached e sch.hahs.took a cab down.dere was a loong tok.den  had refreshments.gina n i left earlier.took a mrt down.i went to orchard to meet my mum.had xray for my teeth.saw auntie n natasha.shoppin for clothes for todae's wedding.ahahs.den we went to eat at "e ship".e salmon was great but mum's steak looked even better.LOls.den went home.one way.bot my black n white M&M's.e peanut one.at last i found it.hahs.den reached hm.bathed n met gina n viv.made our way to orchard.shopped ard.den bot wz n sarah a flower each.went to acs barker.woked ard as we were far too early.den we went in.omg.was soo excited can.den it all started.e entire show was great.e dance.wow.den we did not buy jill's cd in e end.went to findwz n sarah to gif dem e flowers.waited for a loong while.dunno why.i was exceptionally quiet.nobody noes too.den sarah went hm.gaf wz e flower.e atmosphere dere was really touchin.after hearing wad mrs tan haf said etc.dey had really gona thru alot.den took a cab hm.did sum of my graph n went to sleep.
today.woke up n bathed.den went to ritz carlton for e wedding.we were late.n dint noe ahahs.a wide spread of food.enjoyed e cheese pasta.n e dessert was great.dere was one whereby e soft choc is in a small tiny jar.n on top of it.dey put sum berries etc on it.den wahs.carn stand it.e tarts were great.tiramisu n e chilled mango juice wif sago.tat was delicious.we were busy eating can.den went to grandma's house.changed n iwas sp tired tat i slept dere.wahs.ive got tons of hmwk left.
you were everything,everything tat i wanted
we were meant to be.supposed to be.but we've lost it.
and all e memories.so close to me.juz fade away.
we were so close yet so far.
r u really e one for me?
my mind is piled up wif e past memories
wad do u really want
wad is on ur mind
has everything ended.
i want u to noe
im still longing for u
u r e only one in my heart.
-missinualwaes-

whees!i will be seeing ya soon!LOLs.hees.hope tat it would be fUn!-muax-
many thing happened.uurrggh.e PL musical iz arriving.OoO.gonna usher e guests tmr,i wanna ring e bell thingy!!hahas.tat sounds childish ya?but i want it.hees.den gonna go waiyin's house.play play lahs.eat,watch,play!wad a relaxing life.den had maths lesson.dunno drew how many graphs lor.n ms wong doesnt seemed to be satisfied.she isnt satisfied n we r pissified.ahahs.gonna haf PC lesson tmr.oh gosh.hope  tat we wont haf our lit test.hees.had guzheng practice.felt so odd wif ms wong dere.she kept on wanting to try e instruments.LOLs.den haf to teach e sec1s e dance steps tmr?omg.viv n i r in a loss.gonna stone tmr or sumthin.had our geog little quiz todae.luckily it was juz a quiz.flunked it.haf been going to e coffeeshop opp e sch to eat lately.e food is yummy.ahahs.but spent quite alot of money.soo many tests lately.feel lyk dying.haish.sleepy me wants to sleep.lame.
dunno how m i feeling right now.u make me question alot.im still at a loss n it seems tat i can neva find my way out.it is lyk a maze wif no exits.nothing.juz an empty space for me to wok ard.but no matter how far i go.i carn seem to get out.e air seems to be tight too.too tight tat i carn breathe.wad can i do now?u may see things at a diff angle.i dunt ask for much.i juz hope tat u would be able to understand e situation im in now.stop n end my sorrows.

So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
 
im done wif all these things.i wanna let u noe.-itseend-

haven blogged for a loong loong time.k.had my sci tests.chem quiz juz passed.expected lahs.den maths test.prepared.mentally prepared.ahahs.gz.lao shi was okay on tues but even betta on thurs.he taught us.but his mood was okae.so not tat bad.he changed my instrument!!uurrgghh.my hand hurts now.e impact seems to great.my hand hurts.changed sum parts of e song.hope tat i wont get confuse.yeah.den went to watch whitley's band concert.was great.cousin played well!thumbs up!e drums set was cooL =))dey had all e instruments.terrific!n deir uniform is lyk blac wif orange strips?cool can.carn stand it.dey dyed deir hair.no.sprayed.den auntie insisted on bringing us to eat KFC.ate supper.den reached home so late.went to e racial harmony thingy todae.was so tired.woke up when it was raining.dint want to.den played e games etc,we only won consolation prize.mdm zulaikah said tat it would be announced.we dunt want!!!but our group leaders were greeat!played one damn dumb game.had to tie my leg wif tat vs guy's leg.omg.i almoz fall.n he fell.as our legs r tied together,i almoz fell lor.luckily jill helped me.ahahs.den i helped him up k.had to wok for a short distance.but it was tough.den our leader looks lyk gareth gates.n vs's so called in charge looks lyks guiyalai! e moz impt thing!!!we saw WLH!!!!she was tokin to mdm zulaikah.so dunt think she saw us,tried looking for her after tat.but failed.yep.den came bac.rushed for tuition.i was lyk sooooo super duper late.LOls.tats normal i guess.
y r u so evil at times?laughing at me when i "fall".u r suppose to be one of my close frenz.sumone whom i can truly rely.u may haf doubts in me now,coz i really haf doubts in u too.y muz u be e one,sumone who i had neva tot would be lyk dis.y muz u be e one who made e impossible possible?dunt be so mysterious all e tyme.it drives me crazy.i, gonna gif up in u.oh my gawd.i shant respond to ur "actions"
 
 

im so disappointed in u
u may think tat u r alwaes right.but u dunt n neva reflect on urself.think abt it.haf u really spared a tot for me?everytime u seem to put on a mask.not showin ur trueself.y liddat?carn u juz act normally.dunt gimme tat kind of look.ive reflected n i hope u can sooner or later.wad r friends for?to support u when u really need dem.a friend in need is a friend indeed.'
sum ppl r juz simply weird to me.nevamind.i shall forget it.LOLs.sec4 farewell.a wonderful dae!ahahs.so excited can.bbq!den mebbe sabo e sec1s if we can.uuurrgghh.went to eat beancurd.den went macs.ate large fries n gf ahhs.alwaes snatch our food.hmPh.hahs.tmr gotta guzheng.gonna faint.too tired now.wanna sleep

maLuatin.daewahs.carn believe it.so embarrassing can.todae.played e "lollipop" game.omg.hit too hard.mouth bled lors.ahahs.my braces.den after sch.was so urgent.went to e toilet.tot i could relieve myself.ineend.got stuck in e cubicle!!luckily dere was a small little hole.called viv to help.we were lyk practically laughin e whole time.i almoz urinated oUt.ahahs.den after laughin for quite sum time.OoO.thnx viv for kickin e door wif all ur might.LOLs.continued laughing.managed to run out n went into another cubicle.wahs.relieved.hees.den saw a few gals.dey were lyk shocked tat i got locked inside.wanted to use e hammer.hahs.went for guzheng.lao shi dunt seemed to be in a good mood.played gu xiang qing.omg.den de huang fei hong.repeated a few tymes.he was pissed.den e dunno wad qiu tian.i dint noe how to plae e mu yu.anyhow play.luckily he did not scold.den viv's n jueying's turn.sai ma.e atmosphere was scary.den played e ku er ban?struggled my way thru.den repeated sum songs lor.tried e costume.i took cheryl's!omg.i look real funny in it.yeah.we r gonna continue practising.we can do it.LOLs =D
u r alwaes my motivation n strength! =0

im bac!it is my so-called unlucky day todae can.so angRy!but anywae.laughed alot too lahs.hees.after seeing her.left for sch early in e morning.realised i dint bring my criminal foto!urgh.went bac to take.n e moment i reached sch.realised i dint bring my thermometer.wahs.den durin assembly.e announcement was abt e oral thermometer.omg.cold sweat.den jill oso dint bring.ahhas.^5.ms wong is lyk so cold-blooded todae.jill n i went to tell her.she was pissed i guess.ahahs.den on e way.saw tat gal.laughed until i almoz urinated out.ya.jill laughed too.LOLs.den we wanted to buy e thermometer.practically abt 10+ ppl did not bring.ms wong made us buy e thermometer.was so pissed too.we haf it at home.den haf to pay 5 bucks for it?wad e?den went to buy frm mr yeo.we gaf him a suggestion!a good one =X.told him to tell e sch tat e thermometers tat dey sell r far too eX.den later a few ppl went to ask mr yeo abt e thingy.n he said tat we can dunt buy it.omg.dey were lyk so happy.den jill n i ran into his room to tell him tat we dunt want it anymore.we wanted to haf a refUnd.LOls.n it was granted.den ms wong was so angry when we told her tat we dunt haf to buy a thermometer.she made us stand.n sign to assure her tat we will bring it after sch or by tmr.wad e?den we stand to do our maths.urgghhh.i sat.ahahs.drew graphs.so many to draw.soo many lines.i blur already.den after sch.rushed frm guzheng room bac to class.den after tat we were lyk practising for a while.i was stopped by mrs ng.e next class was having a test.oOps.sorry.hahs.den went do to buy sumthing to eat.called my maid.when she doesnt even understand a single word abt wad i was saeing.i wanted her to bring me e thermometer.den called my mum.yeahs.mum saved my life.quickly called my maid.den i felt so relieved.hees.went to get a drink n ate pokie.went to e pb room.den chatted for a while until i realised tat i hafta meet my maid.wahs.rushed out of sch.luckily i saw my maid.she brot me e thermometer.wahs.passed it to ms wong.den after tat went to guzheng rm to practise liaos.wahs.tmr is scary can.i intend to sleep early todae again.lols.
whees.thinkn of ya recently =D.u rawk my life.
-luvyalots- =0

yeah!at last.blogger is working for my comp.haf been trying to login juz now.uuuurrrgghhh.im so tired now.rushed n did my eng hmwk.i wrote crap.loads of crap.omg.n for my geog.hiyaz.dint wanna wake up todae.i was far too sleepy!!my bed is far too comfortable toO.waited for my dearest friend.who was late.hees.den had meetin.ms gan was late too.told us abt sum stuffs.urgh.im still so indecisive.wad to do?realised i gotta bring my criminal passport photo.sad.den had biO.n todae's my first bio lesson.was okay.den recess!!!but i dint eat anywae.mrs jacob dint come in for lesson todae.did e national geog wksheet.almoz died.den started tokin for e rest of e two eng periods.ms gloria is nice =D.after sch.went to find sarah,in a tight fittin costume.ahahs.oOps.shouldnt laugh.i take bac my laughter.hees.l-a-m-e.failed to settle sum things todae.=(den had guzheng.wahs.lao shi was in a soso mood todae.learnt a few more songs.was a little more sure lahs.den dunno abt thurs.seems scary.freakin me out.im lyk sufferin wif my loads of hmwk n other things while my eldest sis is lyk enjoyin her life dis time.wad e?!unfair!!i wanna go canada too!but i can only do it in my dreams so far.nono.im not so lucky.i dint even dream abt it at night.im very sleepy now.gonna sleep early todae.yawns.
U rawk my life.-iluvu-
U r my energy n my hope!muax =0

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vindicated

Hope, dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
Roped me in so mesmorizing
And so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am...

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated
So motivated, I am certain now
That I am..

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defence is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in too deep
to ever swim against the current

So let me slip away, so let me slip away
So let me slip away, so let me slip against the current
So let me slip away, so let me slip away
So let me slip away, so let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

Like hope, dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

woo.luv dis song man.so cool

woke up early in e mornin.at 8.20am.hees.its early to me =pwent to meet ailing/lileng/cheryl/jueying/deborah/viv.we went to haf breakfast at e coffeeshop.i ate e roti prata.not bad.den ailing iz lyk our papa n lileng is our mama liddat.papa go n buy e food,take order for e drinks while mama stay behind to look after us.e small kids.=)ahahs.we r so childish.*gRins.den woked to e pri sch.waited for hwee ru.she was late!bisH.we played hop scotch.LOLs.when will we eva grow up?den at last she came.hwee ru wore coloured contact lenses.wasnt used to seeing her wearing tat at first.kept lookin.more lyk staring actually.whees.den we couldnt use e angklung rm.so no choice.we borrowed e pri sch instruments n went to practice at e grandstand.practiced n practiced until lao shi asked us to go into e room to practice.he went for lunch.pHew.den we bot drinks all tat lor.learnt one more song.den a few pri sch kids knocked e door.we opened it n asked dem to gif us 10 more mins.lao shi came bac at 12.50pm.we packed n left too.deres a lesson at 1 mahs.left sumthin at e pb room.oOps.den woked home.ate my lunch.watched fruit basket.it seemed not bad.perhaps i should start watchin it in future.den watched e jacky show.den headed for tuition.i lyk todae's tuition.anywae.i was late can.chao late.suppose to reach dere by 4.instead i reached e bus stop at 4.hees.den gotta sum lame riddles for us to solve.by a young gal.n tat guy.entertained me a little.hahs.den went home e moment e clock strike 6.quickly zao.tuition teacher dint want me to let me off at first.luckily i was fast.hahs.yeah.can rest at night le!
when ya happy n u noe u clap ur hair *piak piak.my hair iz even shorter than last time.sigh.carn piak again.hahs.im startin to crap again.=]

yeah.its fridae!gotta go sch tmr.im sick again.my voice is horrible.went to sch.it was drizzling.suppose to meet jill earlier.but i was late.urgh.den saw e fridae weekly.5566 n kone.=))den rushed to take my class.assembly was in e hall.yea.i think my class is nice.hees.den watched e youth dae celebration.sum teachers gave us a good laugh.whees.but e programme is far too short.only an hour? yea.den went bac to class.did our ip project.life is real busy.den recess.did not go for recess.continued doin our wk.den had to find mings for my lit notes.wahs.den started cuttin e words for ip.cut e styrofoam.e bin seemed to be covered wif snow.den had lessons.mrs rajah is weird todae.but we r learnin acids n akalis.tats interestin.noe y?coz we learn it before.its easier for us i guess.n durin pc period.jill wanted to brin e entire whole big bin into e class.bud was stopped by >..where is my hope
where is my life
where is my dream
where is my fantasy
where is my strength
where is my courage
where is my lameness
where r my true good frienz
where is my beloved clique
where is e real me

DongBangShinGi;
12:25 PM

Friday, July 02, 2004

im back frm sch.my second dae only.hahs.im gettin used to sch.dWee.at last.sis went on a hol to vancouver.envious can.*bOx.her.hahs.j/k.she is lyk enjoyin her life for 3 weeks n me?sufferin in sch.wif those boring books.urgh.nevamind.she muz at least buy sumthin for us.wInks.
tOdae-
i went to sch.wahs.took my class.did a spot check.mrs han is actually quite nice.ahhs.i finally realised.she asked me to seat on e chair to do my silent reading since i wasnt feelin well.hees.but im too embarrassed.LOLs.my class is okae.dey r quite guai to me.mebbe its my first dae lahs.but e entire class seems to be very cool can.=]den went bac to class.maths.urgh.ms wong was so furious.e majority of e class did not do wad she told us to do.spent e entire 2 periods doing our late hmwk.den recess.after tat.ms tan came in for geOg.finally got to see her.i was so eager to see her face.hear e way she speaks etc.whees.den lessons.lessons.still lessons.
guzheng todae.was okay.i was really scared.but in e end.we dint plae tat song.so everythin's fine.
i finally understand e meaning of being insensitive.at last.i got e feelin of sumone being insensitive.iz awfuL.

DongBangShinGi;
10:15 AM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

at last.im able to sch again.hahs.had a high fever yesterdae morning.woked to sch.n woked back hm.slept n slept till 11+am.went to see a doctor.my temperature was abt 38.5 degree.den gotta lots of pills to take.eee.went bac home.den ate a little porridge.dint haf much appetite.den fell asleep on e sofa.sis woke me up.went to my room to continue sleepin.n only woke up at abt 5+?checked my temperature.wahs.really shocking.it almoz hit 40 degree.yah.39.9.omg.den immediately took ice n wrapped it in a cloth.anyhow wipe.ahahs.den fell asleep for a short while.no matter wad.it was a sleeping dae yesterdae.den toked to angzi at abt 10pm.n out e sudden.e lights went out.wah.i tot it only happen to our block.but after hearin angzi shoutin.den found out tat hougang was affected too.looked outside e window.even e private houses were affected.n angzi was scared.bleeeh.den we lighted our house wif candles!so fun can.it was fun at e start.but i began to feel so damn hot gradually.den no choice.felt drowsy after eating e medicine.slept in e dark.wif no air.hahs.e windows were closed.n it all lasted for abt 2 hrs!wad e?but when i woke up due to e terrible heat.e comp was switched on.wah.e electricity came bac.e aircon worked!i finally realised how important electricity is.den had fever again.cant go to sch.den slept until 10+.ate a little.did sum of my hmwk at abt 2pm.den felt okae.i dunt wanna finish e antibiotics.iRk.n for dinner.i ate spoilt melons.e soup tat dad cooked.omg.i tot it tasted good.in e end.it had turned sour.wah.my sis said its okay.at moz get my mc prolonged in a jokin manner.haish.im tired now.gotta get ready for sch.goin to dreamland.

DongBangShinGi;
1:30 PM

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